Today is Her Birthday...conversation with her....

I'm slightly jealous....cause I know you are eating cake and eating it with most wonderful man!

Well, today is your birthday and I sit hear shedding tears because I cannot physically hug you. Yes, you can say I am having my moment now.

You were and will always be the most greatest nana in the world....you will definately not be forgotten.

Remember when we were sitting in the Dr's office one day once your visits started to occur...I made a promise to you. I promised that your people (Pupie & her two boys) will be taken care of. I promised you that they would be taken care of. I am carrying out that duty today and everyday. I know you are very proud of them as they have came a very long way....its been rough, but Pupie is getting use to living on her own and being independent. Its a struggle at times, but she is loving every minute of it. She is ever so thankful for us helping her to get to this point. Matthew is doing really well in school. =) Unfortuantely we had to take him out of private so that he could get the attention that he needed.

On the other hand, family dynamics aren't so great as you already know whats goin on. But I am sure you are not surprised of the events that took place shortly after you departed. You know it truly hurt me that there were such nasty accusations against me from other family members. People get so ugly after loved ones leave the earth. Its a shame. And I actually thought my family would be exempt from such craziness....NOT! As long as I KNOW that you KNOW whats up and that I would NEVER create any harm to anyone in my family. Never. But this too you already know.

I just wanted to say that I LOVE YOU and truly TRULY miss you. I think about you daily...most of the time at night or when Bre does something funny. Everytime she does something silly I just wish I could pick up the phone and call you and say, " NANA! Do you know what this girl just did!?" She has grown sooooo much and developing so well, and is the biggest clown ever. Well who's her parents? She learns from the best! Even though I can't pick up the phone to call you...I know you see everything. You are a witness to it all, and I know she keeps you in tears from laughing at the things she does.

4th of July is coming up, one of your favorite holidays. We will make sure Pupie and her boys pick out some fireworks as you always would pitch in for the big kahunas! Well, we don't have them this year, so we will just buy from the stands.

It has been so hard being without you. The holidays that have passed the birthday celebrations and so forth. We just celebrated moms birthday, mom and dads 23rd wedding anniversary and Big Reggies, Little Reggie and Stans Fathers Day in Vegas this past weekend. Everyone had a ball. Ebony flew down and even Tommy, Mickey, Thomas, his wife Nichole and their new baby girl Eilianna drove from Arizona to visit with us. She is too cute! The traffic from Vegas was horrific...6 long hours. Long enough to think about flying next time!

So...anyway...I just wanted to start my day off by telling you how much I miss you. But you already know that though. You left to fast....everythnig happened just too fast. I LOVE you Nana....now go back to your birthday party sweet thang!

Happy Birthday Beautiful!

Your Grandaughter,
Tricia